24 yr old girl/very large baby trying to rock while sitting on her bed without it sounding like she's vigorously masturbating. #autisticpplprobs
I like stimming, affect management via "cute aggression," and never leaving my house.
You know how people hyperbolically refer to a messy space as a “crime scene”? Well, I just noticed dried blood splatters on my closet door.
It’s so weird. I have a feeling I’ve talked about this before, but, I have one drink. one. and it is stim city over here. I think it’s especially noticeable since I’ve been taking an “aggressive dose” of ssri, which, according to shrink, MD, can improve sensory integration issues and therefore, presumably, reduce the urge/need to stim! which is supposed to be a good thing and sort of is bc you cant do it in public but I LOVE STIMMING/pity da fool and anyway I miss it kinda. I dunno. end post.
Autism isn’t something a person has, or a “shell” that a person is trapped inside. There’s no normal child hidden behind the autism. Autism is a way of being. It is pervasive; it colors every experience, every sensation, perception, thought, emotion, and encounter, every aspect of existence. It is not possible to separate the autism from the person—and if it were possible, the person you’d have left would not be the same person you started with.
This is important, so take a moment to consider it: Autism is a way of being. It is not possible to separate the person from the autism.
Therefore, when parents say,
I wish my child did not have autism,
what they’re really saying is,
I wish the autistic child I have did not exist, and I had a different (non-autistic) child instead.
Read that again. This is what we hear when you mourn over our existence. This is what we hear when you pray for a cure. This is what we know, when you tell us of your fondest hopes and dreams for us: that your greatest wish is that one day we will cease to be, and strangers you can love will move in behind our faces.
GQ: Can you recommend a good book?
Niall: One Direction: Dare to Dream.
Louis: James Corden's new autobiography [May I Have Your Attention Please?].
Liam: Russell Brand's My Booky Wook.
Zayn: This is going to make me sound like a geek, but I read a book called On A Wing and A Prayer. I think it was about World War I.
Niall: Michael Buble's Onstage, Offstage.
Liam: The script of An Inspector Calls. That's the only one I've ever read.
Harry: You've only ever read one book in your life?
Niall: Me too. It was called: How To Kill A Mocking Bird.
Liam: Wasn't it just called To Kill A Mocking Bird?
Harry: It's confusing because you're 200 pages in and the bird still hasn't died.